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Opinions are like assholes...everyone has one. This is my opinion on whatever the title is or it is a “perspective” I have. If you wish to tell me otherwise, share your perspective, or say something in retort to this on whatever medium your seeing this then go ahead but please note that it’s your word VS. Mine.

I don’t break I bend. I do not change unless you make a convincing argument or I agree with you. I will stand as the person that I am at the specific incident of challenge no matter what. 

You don’t change me; I change me because I want to.

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Its been a while since the last Journal entry. June 27 of last year to be exact.

So nearly 6 months later I have come on to say that things have improved in my life tremendously This includes:

• Me Having a killer Job that has helped me afford various things.

• Getting my relationship with my girlfriend together and us being happier than ever

• Rekindling my relationship with my Grandmother and allowing me back into her home.

• A change for the better with how I am both perceived and Treated and

• A chance, to make my own life.

While all this sounds good Its not to be underestimated that things haven't still been tough on me.

My job while awesome in pay is demanding to an extent, and is not one that I can Guarantee of having since I am considered a “Contractor” and that inherently means I only have work so long as my employer has work for me. That of course can be a good thing or bad thing depending on how the jobs are going around where I work.

But all in all things have turned around for me at least financially and spiritually, I do feel better and know that I am in many ways have some sort of security.

But this year is going to be a tough one. I will have to begin new challenges related to my work that will make it not only more difficult on me but also be something that I have to perform exceptionally in the coming months. As I post this only as a way of letting those that care (which I suspect are little to none) know whats going on in my life. While I can admittedly say I am someone that appreciates Privacy, and not really spelling out his life on these types of Journal/ life posts, I feel like these will be something that will be all I have left after I die. Honestly Everyone who knows who I am are seeing the Me I am allowing them to see, its not necessarily the real me. And of course I could go on About all the ways that others see me, (or at least how I think they do) Or even better the ways I'm Stereotyped or put into categories, but that would be rather long and tedious. In all honesty the person I have chosen to be is one that only wanted one thing.

Peace

Peace of mind, peace of burdens, peace that protects from Evil. Some would say peace is boring but they misunderstand what I mean when I say “Peace”. Hunger, thirst, strife of everyday society, situations that are thrust upon us, these thing are unavoidable, but often time when we don't have peace of mind or we don't have an idea of Who we are and what we want to accomplish that is when people are most hurt by life and its ever changing status. I know I have felt that sting of change many times, and will continue to do so in the future because problems with having to struggle to stay alive will not go away. And struggles like so will only become worse as we defend mute points, put society into awkward positions with questions like “What is our life meant to be?” “Do we have a purpose?” “what is it to be human?” And of course the Supplemental questions to those such as “Why don't we rid ourselves of those damn Muslims/gays/transgenders/Christians/blacks/whites/gays/tumblrests/fictional characters (insert here)/All encompassing forms of being?” Its always disheartening to see that we feel that “Getting rid of the bad ones” is a solution to anything.

None of us are truly bad, we just are misguided in our quest for “Good” Which to be fair is easy, since both of those terms are “Relative to one's perspective”. The way to true peace is not the removal of things, but to find A harmony among all things. What must be done should be done, and not because we all “want” it, but rather because we need it.


I know not what the future holds, but all I know is what I can always say

"Perception is your reality
Reality is how f**** your perception is to everyone else's 
The question is who, do you choose to believe?"

Until next we cross paths my Curious Readers. Ciao