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*Disclaimer*

Opinions are like assholes...everyone has one. This is my opinion on whatever the title is or it is a “perspective” I have. If you wish to tell me otherwise, share your perspective, or say something in retort to this on whatever medium your seeing this then go ahead but please note that it’s your word VS. Mine.

I don’t break I bend. I do not change unless you make a convincing argument or I agree with you. I will stand as the person that I am at the specific incident of challenge no matter what. 

You don’t change me; I change me because I want to.

In advance thank you for any and all time you spend here on this document and your feedback regardless of intention is appreciated for effort.



Its been a while since the last Journal entry. June 27 of last year to be exact.

So nearly 6 months later I have come on to say that things have improved in my life tremendously This includes:

  • Me Having a killer Job that has helped me afford various things.

  • Getting my relationship with my girlfriend together and us being happier than ever

  • Rekindling my relationship with my Grandmother and allowing me back into her home.

  • A change for the better with how I am both perceived and Treated and

  • A chance, to make my own life.


While all this sounds good Its not to be underestimated that things haven't still been tough on me.

My job while awesome in pay is demanding to an extent, and is not one that I can Guarantee of having since I am considered a “Contractor” and that inherently means I only have work so long as my employer has work for me. That of course can be a good thing or bad thing depending on how the jobs are going around where I work.


But all in all things have turned around for me at least financially and spiritually, I do feel better and know that I am in many ways have some sort of security.


But this year is going to be a tough one. I will have to begin new challenges related to my work that will make it not only more difficult on me but also be something that I have to perform exceptionally in the coming months. As I post this only as a way of letting those that care (which I suspect are little to none) know whats going on in my life. While I can admittedly say I am someone that appreciates Privacy, and not really spelling out his life on these types of Journal/ life posts, I feel like these will be something that will be all I have left after I die. Honestly Everyone who knows who I am are seeing the Me I am allowing them to see, its not necessarily the real me. And of course I could go on About all the ways that others see me, (or at least how I think they do) Or even better the ways I'm Stereotyped or put into categories, but that would be rather long and tedious. In all honesty the person I have chosen to be is one that only wanted one thing.


Peace


Peace of mind, peace of burdens, peace that protects from Evil. Some would say peace is boring but they misunderstand what I mean when I say “Peace”. Hunger, thirst, strife of everyday society, situations that are thrust upon us, these thing are unavoidable, but often time when we don't have peace of mind or we don't have an idea of Who we are and what we want to accomplish that is when people are most hurt by life and its ever changing status. I know I have felt that sting of change many times, and will continue to do so in the future because problems with having to struggle to stay alive will not go away. And struggles like so will only become worse as we defend mute points, put society into awkward positions with questions like “What is our life meant to be?” “Do we have a purpose?” “what is it to be human?” And of course the Supplemental questions to those such as “Why don't we rid ourselves of those damn Muslims/gays/transgenders/Christians/blacks/whites/gays/tumblrests/fictional characters (insert here)/All encompassing forms of being?” Its always disheartening to see that we feel that “Getting rid of the bad ones” is a solution to anything.

None of us are truly bad, we just are misguided in our quest for “Good” Which to be fair is easy, since both of those terms are “Relative to one's perspective”. The way to true peace is not the removal of things, but to find A harmony among all things. What must be done should be done, and not because we all “want” it, but rather because we need it.


I know not what the future holds, but all I know is what I can always say


"Perception is your reality
Reality is how f**** your perception is to everyone else's 
The question is who, do you choose to believe?"


Until next we cross paths my Curious Readers. Ciao

So....its been at least a year and 1/2 since I last did one of these. Boy, time sure does fly. But in any case.

*Disclaimer*

Opinions are like assholes...everyone has one. This is my opinion on whatever the title is or it is a “perspective” I have. If you wish to tell me otherwise, share your perspective, or say something in retort to this on whatever medium your seeing this then go ahead but please note that it’s your word VS. Mine.

I don’t break I bend. I do not change unless you make a convincing argument or I agree with you. I will stand as the person that I am at the specific incident of challenge no matter what.

You don’t change me; I change me because I want to.

In advance thank you for any and all time you spend here on this document and your feedback regardless of intention is appreciated for effort.




Whats been going on with me? Well to start I guess i'd say my life finally changed. To quickly recap.

  • Lived with Grandmother at the time of last journal entry.
    • Things between us only worsened either A) My behavior and preferences or (more likely) B) Her behavior/Preferences for me and how I should be despite Who i already was.
      • The rift between us grew wider and wider, i hated her a little, and im sure she (even to this day) hates my guts and who i am.
        • 3 days before Christmas in 2014, i left, never looking back.
          • I became Homeless.
            • For the next 4 months i would make my way to the city i fell in love with the first time i went (Austin, TX) and live there again.
              • I saw an old friend who was finishing college, i made as much peace with him that i could, though i know I've lost his friendship as of now, and permanently this time.
                • After 4 months, decide to go back to my Hometown (cannot say for security purposes) and celebrate (as well as apologize) With my Girlfriend on her birthday.
                  • After that currently living in said hometown trying to fix myself by taking advantage of the hiring opportunites here.

A lot to take in eh? Yeah, well its not been a cakewalk for me either :P. During this time of me not having a place to "Lay my head in peace" I am basically on edge, a edge of fear, of distrust, of not knowing what life will throw at me next. Hell 
Just this last week I have fallen off my Bicycle and possibly have a concussion. My face looks like a train wreck and that may effect my Job seeking abilities (and the jobs im currently trying to get). I still needing cash for neccesities (Like food and such, a home etc. but not getting that anytime soon). Only able to communicate on the net thanks to public librarys
and until i get maybe a small laptop i can't be the "Internet faggot" I used to be shitposting all day (which thanks to free Wi-Fi i could do :P ). Overall this last week has been one of the more bad ones I've had to endure. 

Still, even after all this im still able to smile. Why? Because in all these hardships I've gained something, something that i think People can spend their whole lives trying to figure out.


FREEDOM



I have been free all this time, free to do as I am able to do, no one tells me what to do except me and my brain. I can choose for myself how to live. At just the young age of my early 20's i can see the world clearly, and see why people do what they do and for what end result, and how petty or righteous it can be perceived. I have come to peace with being able to "expire" at any point, and how i know that even though there are still those i can hurt with my passing, at least they won't feel like they "failed" me or that there was more for them to have done.

I put myself here, mostly to prevent me from doing something drastic in my other situation, but I know that i wanted this. The hardships could be a bit easier, but then again I don't regret them being as hard, cause when I have Risen to the challenge and succeeded I have felt that much more like i am worth something. Despite me not being a member of "Society" like some of you (though i never really felt that connection) i feel as though i am "more than human" at times with what I've been able to survive. And in addition, I have succumbed to the belief that God (or some being) has got my back in what im doing, cause otherwise I shouldn't even be alive to post this now.

Its always nice to feel like "Heaven" is on your side :) .

And then Apparently "Gay marriage" is now just "Marriage" cause its legal to do here in the U.S. What Canada has been doing for 10 years. Way to go guys! KUDOS!!


Whats next?


Well, If i could predict the future period, i might have had a different out come on things totally. All i know for Certain is that the next month of July is going to be a "Make or break" month in that its going to be a month in which i need to get as much of my problems solved as i can and fix as much of my life as I can. I think I still have a few reserve options on top of my Plan A to utilize. So I am confident things will work themselves out.


That's all for now, All i wish to leave for you all (and to those that TL;DR ed )


Life is nothing more than being able to perceive, to see things from YOUR own personal perspective. And as i will always say

"Perception is your reality
Reality is how f**** your perception is to everyone else's
The question is who, do you choose to believe?"

Who you choose can make all the difference in your "Life experience".

Till next time. Ciao.


*Disclaimer*

Opinions are like assholes...everyone has one. This is my opinion on whatever the title is or it is a “perspective” I have. If you wish to tell me otherwise, share your perspective, or say something in retort to this on whatever medium your seeing this then go ahead but please note that it’s your word VS. Mine.

I don’t break I bend. I do not change unless you make a convincing argument or I agree with you. I will stand as the person that I am at the specific incident of challenge no matter what. 

You don’t change me; I change me because I want to.

In advance thank you for any and all time you spend here on this document and your feedback regardless of intention is appreciated for effort.



Its been a while since the last Journal entry. June 27 of last year to be exact.

So nearly 6 months later I have come on to say that things have improved in my life tremendously This includes:

  • Me Having a killer Job that has helped me afford various things.

  • Getting my relationship with my girlfriend together and us being happier than ever

  • Rekindling my relationship with my Grandmother and allowing me back into her home.

  • A change for the better with how I am both perceived and Treated and

  • A chance, to make my own life.


While all this sounds good Its not to be underestimated that things haven't still been tough on me.

My job while awesome in pay is demanding to an extent, and is not one that I can Guarantee of having since I am considered a “Contractor” and that inherently means I only have work so long as my employer has work for me. That of course can be a good thing or bad thing depending on how the jobs are going around where I work.


But all in all things have turned around for me at least financially and spiritually, I do feel better and know that I am in many ways have some sort of security.


But this year is going to be a tough one. I will have to begin new challenges related to my work that will make it not only more difficult on me but also be something that I have to perform exceptionally in the coming months. As I post this only as a way of letting those that care (which I suspect are little to none) know whats going on in my life. While I can admittedly say I am someone that appreciates Privacy, and not really spelling out his life on these types of Journal/ life posts, I feel like these will be something that will be all I have left after I die. Honestly Everyone who knows who I am are seeing the Me I am allowing them to see, its not necessarily the real me. And of course I could go on About all the ways that others see me, (or at least how I think they do) Or even better the ways I'm Stereotyped or put into categories, but that would be rather long and tedious. In all honesty the person I have chosen to be is one that only wanted one thing.


Peace


Peace of mind, peace of burdens, peace that protects from Evil. Some would say peace is boring but they misunderstand what I mean when I say “Peace”. Hunger, thirst, strife of everyday society, situations that are thrust upon us, these thing are unavoidable, but often time when we don't have peace of mind or we don't have an idea of Who we are and what we want to accomplish that is when people are most hurt by life and its ever changing status. I know I have felt that sting of change many times, and will continue to do so in the future because problems with having to struggle to stay alive will not go away. And struggles like so will only become worse as we defend mute points, put society into awkward positions with questions like “What is our life meant to be?” “Do we have a purpose?” “what is it to be human?” And of course the Supplemental questions to those such as “Why don't we rid ourselves of those damn Muslims/gays/transgenders/Christians/blacks/whites/gays/tumblrests/fictional characters (insert here)/All encompassing forms of being?” Its always disheartening to see that we feel that “Getting rid of the bad ones” is a solution to anything.

None of us are truly bad, we just are misguided in our quest for “Good” Which to be fair is easy, since both of those terms are “Relative to one's perspective”. The way to true peace is not the removal of things, but to find A harmony among all things. What must be done should be done, and not because we all “want” it, but rather because we need it.


I know not what the future holds, but all I know is what I can always say


"Perception is your reality
Reality is how f**** your perception is to everyone else's 
The question is who, do you choose to believe?"


Until next we cross paths my Curious Readers. Ciao

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I just made this so i could see and comment on other great artists.. i dable in arts myself but the best shit ive done are just a lot of "shop" works (i.e. photoshop) so dont expect much.
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